TWO!

Today is B's second birthday. It seems impossible that he's already two, and yet it also seems impossible that he's only been in our lives for two years. The conundrum of parenthood. Of course, when babies turn one, they generally don't really "get" the whole birthday thing. They know they get presents and cake, but they don't really grasp why. It's still slightly fuzzy even at two, but they're starting to get it more, at any rate. B has really been enjoying singing Happy Birthday today, considering it's one of his favorite songs anyway. And he's definitely quite taken with the fact that we're saying, "Dear B." He's also really enjoying telling everyone he's "TWO!" today (hence the post title).

I remember some things from October 25, 2007 so vividly it's as if they just happened. Other things are such a blur they might have happened a lifetime ago. Again, the conundrum of parenthood. Mostly, I remember the mixture of emotions - elation and stark terror, exhaustion and hyper-alertness. I remember thinking that I wasn't really so sure, after all, that I was ready for this. And of course I wasn't. No one ever is. But here I am, two years later. I still don't know what the hell I'm doing, a lot of the time. But I do know that I love my son more with every day that passes, and I know that I would do anything for him, and in the end, that's probably the most important thing.

Happy Birthday, Buddy Bud!