Someday...

Someday, I will go to bed and fall asleep. Someday, I won't have a pit of anxiety in my solar plexus. Someday, my head hitting the pillow will NOT be a signal to my brain to start scrolling uncontrollably through all the horrible scenarios that could befall my family. Someday, I will feel peace. I will feel, in the night, the faith that carries me through the day. I will feel happy and the happy images in my mind will float me into a sleep that will last until morning. And I will enjoy the hell out of that day.